So, I got promoted this summer. Did I ever mention that? I was told it is really an "amazing" thing that I should be "proud of" to get promoted amidst layoffs.
I felt crummy. I didn't want it (at first).
But, then I thought about how hard I worked and still work, and how I deserved it, especially since they delayed it last year. In my mind I compared what I do to what others do, and it definately was deserved.
It is weird though, for the first time in my career in public accounting at Deloitte I have surpassed those whom started before me....its weird to think that the people that mentored you are now a level below you. How can that be? I dunno, its just weird, and feels wrong.
So, today, our raise letters came.
I expected it to be low, but with my promotion I anticipated a certain amount.
I was disappointed. My raise was extremely low for a promotion year. I feel as if this is another kick in the ass from Uncle D.
At the same time I wonder, am I being greedy? Shouldn't I have expected this (which I thought I did, but was obviously underprepared for it)? Shouldn't I be happy I have a job (nevermind the people who got laid off that I know got severance, their PTO paid out, and have a new job already making more than they did at Deloitte)?
When should I complain? And when should I be thankful? I was bitter for quite a while...but then Nathan was playing trucks with Daddy, and it all just faded away.
Maybe I do deserve more, but I am not willing to fight for it right now. Right now, I just want to be a Mom.