Wednesday, June 29, 2011


do you like surprise?  Or hate it? 

I guess most would depends.  I think the word "surprise" is related to mostly positive things...but I do think it is interesting when used to describe people...or rather, perceptions you have of people that you find out are completely wrong

I worked with this woman for about four years...I rarely reported directly to her, but she was always around.  She was one of those women that always looked awesome, hair and nails perfect, the cute know, polished.  She also laughed so loud all the time you could hear her across the entire office.  I never thought she struggled with anything and that her job must be dang easy. 

She left a few years ago, and now I work with her again.  We went out to lunch yesterday, and she ordered meatloaf.  She then talked to me about how she loves meatloaf -- completely crushing every assumption in my mind that I had made about her.  surprise!  It was a wonderful lunch -  kicking the walls down and getting to know her. 

I find that the opposite is often true...old acquaintences that re-surface from years ago surprise me a lot as well...many times it is not positive.  It is like the memory of who they were is often better than the reality of who they are now.  That makes me sad. 

I have been feeling sentimental lately...I think it is because I have sort of "graduated" from a phase in my life, and there was no send was a quiet move, and so, I have been thinking of all the big "changes" in my life...most of them had much pomp and circumstance...graduations - high school, college, confirmation, marriage, kids...but this time...nothing really.    

I can't help but get "Come Sail Away" in my it say it so much better than me!

I'm sailing away
Set an open course for the Virgin Sea
'Cause I've got to be free
Free to face the life that's ahead of me

On board, I'm the captain
So climb aboard
We'll search for tomorrow on every shore
And I'll try, oh Lord, I'll try to carry on

I look to the sea
Reflections in the waves spark my memory
Some happy, some sad
I think of childhood friends and the dreams we had

We lived happily forever
So the story goes
But somehow we missed out on the pot of gold
But we'll try best that we can to carry on

Saturday, June 25, 2011

Birthday and Winzer Stube...

Last Sunday was someones 60th birthday!  We had the whole afternoon planned...little did he know...we packed up the kids and picked up Grandpa and Grandma and headed to the Winzer Stube in Wisconsin.  It is authentic German food --- the first time I had real German food I  hated it...I thought it was really salty and greasy and it was just not good.  I wasn't going again.  Then, I got dragged along on another family outing one time to a different German restaurant called  "Winzer Stube" and I certainly was not excited about it.  Plus, I remember the company we were there with made me feel totally uncomfortable, so I was out of sorts.  But, when the food came, I was like, whoa, this is awesome!  We have been back about 4 or 5 times, and everytime I have enjoyed it since.  This time I had my favorite...Jagersnitchzel with spaetzle, and red and white cabbage.  I enjoyed the red cabbage the best, as usual. 
Evan was feeling a little under the weather...when he gets congested, he gets goop coming out of his eyes...poor boy....
 After dinner we came back home and picked up DQ.  The boys loved it..even though they were SO FULL. 

I had my first butterscotch dilly bar...I love butterscotch sundaes (LOVE THEM) so why I hadn't tried this ever, I dunno.  It was good, but definately didn't compare to a sundae. 

Enjoying the gorgeous night!

 We had my brother Kevin (and I guess my Dad came along too) do a little decorating while we were gone to surprise the birthday boy...they did a good was pretty funny how many streamers were everywhere!

Nathan helping open the gift...a big smoker!  I can't wait to taste some smoked stuff outta there....
After the evening ended, it hit me that a big day (my first day of work at the new place) was coming and I felt odd.  I know it will take awhile to get used to things there...lots of new systems and ways of doing things, and lots of new people I have to get used to...after Monday, I wasn't sure I had made the right decision, even though every fiber in me told me I needed to go.  I know I just need to trust in that.  By Wednesday and Thursday, I was starting to feel a lot better about things.  Either way, I think it is really going to be a tough year for me work-wise...but then, when I think about my old job, how is that any different than any of the past 5 years?  Every year I felt like it was just getting more and more tough.   Part of me wishes I would just catch on right, hmm, on Monday, everything would just start to click and I would fit right now...

On other notes, I have been varnishing.  Oh the whoas of varnishing!  I felt like if I did this myself I would feel so proud, but with varnishing, all I feel like is that I am failing.  The first coat went on really well...I was like, I can totally do this!  The second coat, ummm....not so much.  I got some drip marks or marks where it wasn't even a drip...just like too much or wasn't smooth, I was having trouble sanding things out...argh!  Just frustration.  I finally worked things out and put a 3rd coat on yesterday on three of the pieces to see how it turned out.  I was very upset with the one larger piece.  So, I went to Menards today and got some different sanding tools and some foam brushes (rather than natural bristle) to see if that helped.  I just went downstairs to look at my work from this morning, and I think it looks pretty good for an amateur.  Hopefully by tomorrow I can finally say "I am done varnishing one piece of the mantel!  Only 6 more pieces to go!"  maybe after I get the hang of will go more smoothly?   Here's hoping....

Speaking of hope, I have been really bad on the praying lately.  I feel like I have lost touch with God because I am so busy, and really, it should be the opposite.  I need to find my connection again and start to really lean in on him...especially just for reading and hearing the many people are suffering, and I just want to pray for them and thank God for taking care of them....

Tuesday, June 21, 2011

Family bonfire...

Last weekend, finally a nice Saturday!  Chris got the yardwork done, I stained, and that night we had our first family bonfire -- we have had a firepit now for 1.5 summers, and have yet to use it for anything fun, so this was exciting.

Evan waited patiently in his swing while we got everything ready...

All star swinger!  Auntie Karen would love that form!

Cute toes by a warm fire...

The view from our backyard...looking up....

Hot dogs!
Me and the boys!

Lovin' it!  All he wanted was a wooden spoon and he was happy....
For those of you that want to know, the first day of work was okay!  I have no idea what I am doing, but the people are nice and I found my way to the bathrooms.  :-)

Friday, June 17, 2011

June is half over already....

And I have yet to go to the beach!  Although, I have been out on the water twice, and the first time was gorgeous and warm, so maybe that makes up for it.  I would go grab the kids and head over today, but it is cloudy with a chance of storms...and I just looked at the 10 day forecast and everyday except for one it is supposed to rain.  darn.  Maybe it will clear up in time for July 4th. 

Unfortunately, I have a ton of stuff I could do inside.  Tomorrow we are headed up to my brothers for a baptism/birthday party so I have gifts to wrap for that, Chris' Dad's birthday is Sunday so we need to wrap that gift, and I bought cards like 3 months ago for all these things...where did I put them?  My mom's birthday is Thursday...good grief!  And I haven't even finished the hardanger I started for their anniversary.  The laundry is growing by the minute (seriously, my kids are dirty pigs after school) and I have a fireplace mantel that I could varnish.  Once I go buy the varnish. 

Here it is half -stained...

Another view....

Evan is getting over his latest cold and he was really stuffed up this morning...I thought about keeping him home but then knew if I did I wouldn't get any varnishing done, and we won't have much time tomorrow for things.  He has started eating table food at school, and since he is really starting to reject his bottle, we decided last night to keep him up to have dinner with us.  He got some cooked carrots, a meatball, and some crackers.  We thought he dropped most of it in his chair, but when we picked him up, most of it was gone...apparently he did eat a lot of it! 
Took the kids with to the carwash the other night...Nathan got kind of worried but I told him it was okay.


Thursday, June 16, 2011

"Moving on up...

(moving on up)to the East side..."

Seriously, I am moving more east...even if it is only two blocks.  Yesterday was my last day of Deloitte!  Chris accidently sent me an email this morning to the old email address and it bounced back to him -- shut down.  over.  finito.  YAE.

Yesterday though was crazy.  We were still working hard on getting this consolidated return efiled on time, and then there was this whole scary ordeal with someone at work.  Fortunately, it all turned out okay, and obviously I cannot talk about it or I would elaborate, but let's just say some people are creeps. 

I got up this morning and went for a mile run -- it wasn't even 8 AM yet...but it was good.  I am glad I can just go for a mile run now without walking and/or killing myself.  Then I took a shower and decided I wanted coffee.  I knew my mom and Karen would be home so I headed over there for a couple hours with some coffees. 

Then I came home and mowed lawn.  dang.  it was only 75 out but I think it is super humid or something because it sucked.  I was dripping sweat, getting bit by mosquitos, and hauling grass around.  no fun!  took me a couple hours but I finished so that is nice. 

Another exciting note is that I have "gone dark".  Yes...I don't have a cell phone.  When I get in my car, I think "where is my phone?" and then I go "oh yeah".  Today is day 3 of going without, and, honestly, it is really not that hard.  While you lose the conveinance,  you also lose the feeling you need to check your phone ALL THE TIME. Which, do people realize how often they check their phones?  Watch them sometime.  Get off work, check phone.  Walk to bus stop, check phone.  Wait for bus, check phone.  Get on bus, check phone.  Get a phone call, say, "can't talk now, on the bus".  Get off bus, check phone and make phone the way, why do people on the bus think it is okay for them to drive and talk on their cell, but not okay to do it on the bus?  and then almost hit people because you aren't watching? 

Last week we had friends over for dinner...we had kabobs...

I made too many though...

We HAD to sing happy birthday...

Nathan helped blow out candles...

As you can see, he really liked the cupcakes! 
It was such a fun night -- it is awesome to have friends who are comfortable coming over and hanging out with kids around! 

Tuesday, June 14, 2011

Thought I'd worked through my last "crisis"....

No matter how hard I have tried, every year this one account I am on goes down to the wire!  It's not anything I do -- it is a piece I don't work on, but today was major running around, drama, and trying to get things ready so we could e-file this tax return by tomorrow.  Fortunately, things worked out after pulling in some last minute help and standing over people while they did the work...definately NOT fun.  But it got done.  whew.   and thus ends my last late night at Deloitte. 

My last day is tomorrow.  Wow.  I don't think I believe it yet. 

One thing that is unique is that I have gone dark.  You know how when they used to have the old Apollo flights and when the ship was on the otherside of the moon, they would "go dark" meaning there would be a period of no communication. 

That's me -- I am cell-phone less.  I am okay with it.  I actually was one of the first people I know to have a cell phone.  It truly was a "cell phone" -- Zack Morris style (okay, maybe a little smaller).  My dad got it for me since I was driving back and forth to school.  The one time I needed it (left my headlights on) no one at home answered the phone so it was pretty useless.  That, and I forgot to charge it all the time.   Anyways, I really actually hate talking on my cell.  It never sounds right to me.  I don't really know how people can chat on their cell phones for hours.  I can talk on a land line for awhile, but a cell phone?  no thanks.  I get tired of saying, "what?  huh?  say again?"  yeah.   Not sure when I will get a new one...sometime after I start my new job I would guess....

And speaking of new jobs..all new jobs need new shoes!

I took this picture because I currently have an awesome pedi...but, it does kind of creep me out to show my feet.  oh well. 

And oh my gosh, I love these shoes below.  LOVE THEM.  I don't even want to wear them because I just love them and if they are mean to me (wear out or cause blisters or squeak or something) I seriously don't want to know

Weekend at Grandma Jayne's...

Two weekends ago already we went to Grandma Jayne's for three nights while the men were out of town fishing.  It started off kind of hectic -- Mom hurt her foot really bad on Monday, and by Thursday, my mom, who never goes into the doctor, had made an appointment to go in.  I was reluctant to bring two very active boys over if something was broken or if she would be on crutches or something, but decided maybe she would need help so I packed everything up and headed over around 4 in the afternoon. 

When we got there Grandma had just gotten home and she was wearing a big boot on her foot -- she tore or pulled a ligament in the bottom of her foot, and had to wear this boot for at least two weeks to see if it would heal.  I brought her a coffee from Dunn though to cheer her up so I think that helped. 

Thursday night was pretty relaxing...we had chile and didn't do much after dinner.  Friday morning we got up and I made some eggs and we headed out to run errands.  We went to Kohl's, and didn't find anything there for mom or myself, but we did find some Hane's classic T's on sale for Nathan.  Then we stopped at Archivers since I was scrapbooking whenever I could -- I finished 17 pages for Nathan and I finally started on Evan's book. I really need to start going on Evan's because he is going to be one year old in a month!  craziness. 

Grandma treated us though to McDonald's after all the errands...we went to one with a big was late in the afternoon so I didn't think it would be so busy but it was.  There were definately some disengaged parents in were fighting up above and this one dad didn't even flinch when the screaming began.  We told Nathan he could go play but to stay away from the naughty kids.  It was so funny -- he crawled up all the towers, saw the other kids, watched them for a second as they fought and kicked and yelled, and turned around and went the other way.  You could just see him thinking, "I'm outta here!"  The awesome part about McDonalds that day is Mom had a bunch of coupons, so we all ate for only $7. 

Friday night was chinese takeout -- Karen works right next to the Rose Garden in Coon Rapids, so we asked her to bring home some Chinese.  It was really good, and helped us because we didn't have to cook.  My mom loves chinese food, and my dad hates it, so whenever he is out of town, I usually invite her over or bring some over for her. 

Saturday we got the pool out...I had been bad and hadn't taken any pictures until then...
We had lunch poolside...although, Nathan had his sandwich IN the pool. 

Evan loves water now...he was having a ball in there!

Benny supervised in the shade of the was a pretty warm day so perfect for swimming...
We went to church that night, and then afterwards came home and had a bonfire with hotdogs....Mom got a leaf on her boot and Karen thought it was hilarious so she took a picture....poor Mom!:

Nathan was pretty scared to get close to that fire (which is good!)...

Eating dinner...very good!
After dinner Nathan went back in the pool for a bit...but it was getting cold so he didn't stay long.  Mom even soaked her swollen foot for awhile...Evan woke up and  had some dinner in his highchair by the pool.  Mom thought maybe if I fed him some baby food late (it was around 8pm) he would sleep in the next day. I knew he would be, he was up at the crack of dawn...

Overall it was a really fun weekend and it helped me not worry so much about quitting my job a few days later...which I was stressing about majorly....

Friday, June 10, 2011

Pictures as promised!

Here are the pictures I promised on my last blog...Auntie Karen gave them matching outfits this Christmas...and while the pants are too long on both of them (my boys have short legs even though they are tall -- long torsos I think) the outfits finally fit!

Thomas outfits!


What a whirlwind week...quitting my job...feeling horrible about it, feeling elated about it...talking with people at my new job and feeling so excited -- lunch with the girls yesterday, hung out with my closest friend yesterday afternoon and evening, and today, pedicures with another friend and then a fabulous dinner for her birthday!  *whew* 

I am feeling very blessed and very content this weekend...even though last weekend was fun as well (pictures to come on that), I felt a sense of "dread" all weekend, and now that is gone. 

Oh, and I bought clothes yesterday.   And shoes.  Cute shoes!!!  I love them.  I'll have to take a picture of those later.  goodness!

Evan got his (late) 9 month checkup today -- he is doing well -- tall and skinny as usually and laughing his head off at the all the nurses and techs and doctors there...I told him on the way home I really don't understand why he likes it there so much! (although, we didn't have to get shots, which may be why....)

Gotta run!

Monday, June 6, 2011

Big news...

Today I gave my two week notice at work...I have worked there for over ten years, so it was an emotional rollercoaster. 

I am going to a smaller firm downtown, and I think that it will be a much better fit for me...I have thought and prayed about this for a long time, so I am trusting that it was the right choice for me.  It felt right.  I don't think I could have gone through with it if it didn't feel *right*.  I won't elaborate on this further, because I just don't think I can put how I am feeling right now into words...

Instead, I will just post some totally adorable pictures of my boys!

Okay, I won't, I guess the upload/server is currently busted!