Friday, December 28, 2012

Post Christmas blues....

happens every year. 

the post Christmas blues. 

The vacation is over.

Busy season is around the corner.

The good thing about today:  It snowed!  I went out in it last night...went for a walk with Benners and the moon and the snow.  it was nice.  quiet.  peaceful.

Then I went to Old Navy to return something, and stopped by to see a friend.  This friend hates snow.  Despises it.  Every bad thing that happens to her when there is snow around is snows fault.  And she let me know how she felt about it.  I was pretty disappointed...I made a bee-line for the door.  Everyone has bad days.  Its okay. 

Snow is nice.

I think I will go play Settlers or watch Little House.  I got seasons 1-3 on DVD for Christmas. 

loving that.

Wednesday, December 26, 2012

So, I update my blog pics...

And the pictures on my sidebar --------------------------------------> shrink.

I don't get it.  I think blogger is dumb. 

But I use it because its free.

Anyways....what's up people?  I went to ShopKo today with Evan for some post-Christmas shopping...just for wrapping paper and stuff.  They didn't have much left but we got some good stuff and should be all set for next year.  It's always fun to go the day after Christmas and see all the Valentine's stuff out. 

Here are some more pictures from our Christmas....LOL...the pic below is what I found outside my bedroom door that night...I was on the phone with my brother Kevin (who was drinking a beer) and I said to him,"lucky duck!  I want a beer" and then I found this outside my door. 

Nathan is too cute sometimes. 


Here we go...opening gifts...

Evan getting Peter Pan on DVD!


Opening their Christmas ornaments.  Nathan was so excited for his (a choo choo train) that I got a hug.

The boys helped me open my vacuum!  Look at how excited Evan is that it has a HEPA filter!  Smart boy that kid.

Not every woman would be excited about a vacuum, but I was!

After the kids went to bed...Santa came...

Were they good this year or something?  Growing up, our stockings were mostly things we needed...so, we wrap up all sorts of stuff for our kids.  Like Spaghetti-O's, which I never buy otherwise (I like Annie's Organic ones better, but that's for another day). 


Nathan asked Santa for the red Switch and Go Dino...and Santa brought i!

Evan opening his Light Saber....

Overall, it was a fun day.  Daddy went fishing later on and caught a Toothie!  :-)

Sunday, December 23, 2012

Christmas Eve...our house...

This Christmas is different.  My inlaws are away at my BIL's, so we have less places to go and less people to see.  At first I was really annoyed and sad that they weren't going to be here and weren't coming home, but then I embraced it.  More time for me with just my family.  more time to sit still and enjoy the quiet.
 
So, I decided we would celebrate Christmas this weekend at our house, so that we could relax after gifts were open (play with our toys!).  So far, its been great.  The kids played all day - especially with their Light Sabers. 
 
Here are some pictures from our Christmas last night...
 
This picture below was as I was setting up the camera...I love it..look at how Daddy and boys are...
 

Family picture!  I feel like I look like Rudolph - why my nose got red, I dunno.

Our tradition is to make homemade pizza on Christmas.  Here are some pictures of us making our pizzas (well, none of me though!)




Evan kept eating some of his toppings.  Hilarious.  He loves the purple onion. 

Hee hee...laughing!

I think Daddy's pizza had five pounds of toppings on it..no wonder his crust didn't get crispy!

Friday, December 21, 2012

Christmas counter toppers...

I've been working on projects...these are all for my mom - and are reversible!
 

the backs...or fronts...gotta love those turkeys!

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Got a lot of  nothing done today.  It was nice.  here was my day:

-woke up to dog howling (seriously) LOUDLY becuase Christopher and the boys left (we are dog sitting)

-decided since dog is howling, maybe I should get out of bed and do some cleaning

-cleaned a tad, and headed off to chiropractors

-came home, changed, decided to run to Target

-Went to Target...Target is crazy busy!  Happy to see its busy but get me the heck outta there!

-Decided to get a pedicure.  I love the girls in there - so sweet.  They put snowflakes on my toes.  It makes me giggle when I look at them.

-Decided to go tanning.  Did a 15 minute session.

-Went and got the kids early - after lunch, before nap.  Evan was laying down already but wasn't yet asleep.  Nathan was like, "why are you here already?"

-Came home and started to do some work around the house.  Laundry.  Picking up toys.  Fed dog.  Shoved his pill down his throat (I tried putting it with food but he is too smart for that). 

-Ate lunch, and husband came home early.  He got a haircut and looked hot. 

-Worked on dinner (made hash), cooked up all of the remaining apples from the orchard we got this fall - holy cow, is that good applesauce, and boiled eggs for deviled eggs and egg salad.

-Relaxed for an hour

-Chris left to go visit a friend in the hospital, I did some ironing, laundry (never ends I tell you!) and fed the kids.  They are downstairs at this moment whacking each other with the remainder of a roll of wrapping paper.  Evan especially seems to enjoy whacking things...I dunno about that kid. 

Chris is going to try ice fishing tomorrow...huzzah!!  ice fishing is so fun!

Thursday, December 20, 2012

Christmas program...

It has been a week.  It started out with a great Sunday at my parents, sledding, laughing, lots of hugs and giggles.  Monday night was the kid's Christmas program.
 
I have to admit I did worry some this weekend, and especially Monday, about the Christmas program.  Last year with all that stuff with Nathan going on -- I have to say I was so distraught when he got up there to sing and kept walking around and didn't sing his songs.  He had just turned 4.  I don't know why I cared.  Well, I do know why, because his hyperactive overanalyzing nutty "teachers" made irritating comments to me everyday. 
 
But this year before the singing, they did a slideshow with pictures of the kids and played the song "Let them be little" and I teared up.  And you know what?  The boys did GREAT. 
 
I can remember when you fit in the palm of my hand
Felt so good in it, no bigger than a minute
How it amazes me, you're changing with every blink
Faster than a flower blooms they grow up all too soon
 
 
So let them be little 'cause they're only that way for a while
Give them hope, give them praise, give them love every day
Let them cry, let them giggle, let them sleep in the middle
Oh just let them be little

 
I've never felt so much in one little tender touch
I live for those kisses, prayers and your wishes
Now that you're teaching me things only a child can see
Every night while we're on our knees all I ask is please


Let them be little 'cause they're only that way for a while
Give them hope, give them praise, give them love every day
Let them cry, let them giggle, let them sleep in the middle
Oh just let them be little
 



So innocent, a precious soul, you turn around
It's time to let them go
 

So let them be little 'cause they're only that way for a while
Give them hope, give them praise, give them love every day
Let them cry, let them giggle, let them sleep in the middle
Oh just let them be little
 



Let them be little




Afterwards, we went to McDonalds, and I got them big cones.  You are only little once. 



I love this picture of my dad.  My dad loves McDonalds.  He never complains about it.  He just has always loved it -- and this picture captures it! 

Tuesday, December 18, 2012

34. Yowzers!

These are some pictures from a little birthday gathering at my Mom's - it will be the last birthday gathering my older brother, younger sister and I celebrate together.  (why?  Because I am not celebrating with my older brother and his wife ever again...I guess I don't care anymore if the whole world knows that they seem to enjoy blaming me for everything and make me feel like shnit.  I am done with that!)
 
Here are the kids having fun with a tractor ride!
 

Here is Nathan putting the candles on my cake...a true classic...two layer chocolate cake...with chocolate almond frosting!  totally good. 

Blowing out Mommy's candles!

Sillies!


What I really wanted for my birthday was snow.  It came a week later.  We had so much fun.  It almost makes me sad looking at these pictures because I feel like its never going to happen again.  too many snow haters out there!


I really do wish it would snow again.  I am very jealous of Iowa and Chicago and Colorado right now. 

I am thankful though for what we've gotten.  Probably one of the few. 

Hi Auntie!

this was cool. 

so cool.

who cares if we had to shovel and plow three times?  it was worth it!

Saturday, December 15, 2012

heartache.

(written last night)

every year my mom, sister and I spend a day downtown before Christmas.  We were having a great time today, giggling, laughing, being silly.  My mom got hit on while we were walking to lunch...it was hilarious.  A black man grabbed my arm and said, "hey, is that your mama?"  and I go, "yes" and he goes, "tell her she's beautiful baby" and I just said, "thank you!"  We laughed and laughed about it.

about an hour later, when I heard the news, my heart sank.  i felt ill.  i felt a tiny bit of the pain those parents felt.  are feeling.  a rush a panic flooded through me and I wanted to run to my kids, scoop them up, and hug them forever.

this world isn't safe.  it's evil.  it scares me because I know I cannot protect my kids from it. 

I know God could have stopped it but He didn't.  He gives people a choice.  I don't understand if He always knows what we are going to do or choose, or if He just knows what's in our hearts, so He knows where we are headed.  I wish He would have stopped it. 

There is a devil, there is Satan, and he laughed today...but I know God cried. 

And then, although I don't understand why He didn't stop the violence, deep down I know He has a reason.  After all, He let his only son die a horrific, violent death...and if I am even 1/100000th of a parent like He is, His heart must have been breaking the entire time.    But He had a reason for it. 

I just wish the reason could have been taught or learned or happened some other way. 

But as God says, My thoughts are not your thoughts.  My ways are not your ways. 



Tuesday, December 11, 2012

Kitchen backsplash

Around Chris' birthday, in July, we stopped at Lowe's one night.  It was just Chris and I, and we had some time to burn before picking up the kids from Grandma's.  We were kind of looking for tile, but weren't expecting much.  At least I wasn't.   I had already been to the tile shop and had been completely overwhelmed there, as well as insulted (apparently putting a backsplash next to a formica top is unmentionable!).  Anyways, surprisingly, we both found tile we really loved.
 
So, the tile sat there, for quite some time, purchased and not put up.  I mentioned to Chris a few weeks ago, "Our backsplash is never going to get put in, is it?"  And he goes, "why not? I just need help." and I said, "I will help you!"  I really wanted to learn how.
 
We got everything prepped and ready and when the kids went down for a nap a Saturday ago we decided to start on a corner.  I was going to cut, but I got scared.  I kept thinking of Chris' hand.  He was fearless, however, and just got busy.  So, I did the putting up, the measuring, and the "figuring out".  I really liked it!
 
Here is the before picture: 
 

Another before:


And another: 

Here is the corner after!

And ta-da!! The whole thing!!  We kept walking into our kitchen and going, "whoa" because it was so different.  A lot darker.  Chris sealed it the  next day but it's not grouted yet.  The tiles are all uneven so Chris says that will be a B!@#$.  I don't think I will help with that part (hee hee). 

*Shout out to my good friend Becky who reads this blog*

We share a birthday and she sent me a message tonight which was funny because I was thinking a lot about her last week (since it was my birthday).  Sometimes I reimnicse...I do a lot of thinking I decided.  Chris doesn't think when he does things, he just thinks about the thing he is doing.  Not me!  Apparently this is a major difference between guys and girls...girls think many things at once.

Anyways, do you ever stop and think about years gone past and the friends and days that have gone by?  Sometimes, around noon when I am sitting at work in a meeting or am eating lunch all by myself at my desk, I think of how 18 or so years ago I would be sitting in band playing my flute.  Occasionally a song will pop in my head and I can hardly believe I can remember the whole thing.  Dave Brubeck is one that still gets stuck...or Nilesdance....or Pavane...I find it out when I think about those times because the man I was to marry was sitting there all along in the same room with me.  weird. 

I also spend a lot of time, in quiet moments, thinking about prior friendships that have gone by the wayside, or the people I have lost touch with.  You would think in this day and age you wouldn't lose touch with anyone, but it does happen.  Even though you are "connected", there isn't a relationship there.  Sometimes it makes me sad.  Sometimes it makes me happy -- because as you mature you realize some people just aren't good for you, even if things didn't end well.  

But thinking about Becky does make me sad!   Because she is far away, and even if she was close, I feel like she would still be too far away...We are all too busy and have kids and work and committments and husbands and there is never enough time to do all the things you want to do...

*sigh*  I know I can do better.  I think that is something I am going to work on in the New Year.  I really want to make sure friends and family that I love know they are loved....other people do that to me, so I need to start giving of myself more. 

The day after the election I was sick.  I got a random text message from my friend Karla that said, "I was just thinking of you.  I don't know why.  But I had to tell you I was thinking of you and I love how passionate you are about things."  This made my day.  I need to do more things like that.  Random acts of kindness.  Yes.  This is my goal. 

Dear Santa...

Dear Santa,
 

Please bless my family and keep us safe....