Sunday, December 28, 2014

Jeffrey gets the remote....and life....

Jeffrey started moving one day months ago...and never stopped.  Even Chris remarked today that Jeffrey went from sweet wiggly baby in the corner to annoying Waddler in like a day....

That's okay.  We still love him.  Even when he changes the channel on us...



September was warm...green, sunny......



Sometimes people ask me why Jeffrey is always in jammies.  These are Sleep and Plays....

And they are the best things ever...

I don't ask, but I often wonder why people dress their kids up in all these silly pants and top type outfits that have tight elastic around their middles, their socks are falling off, their bottoms always need pulling up...no thanks for me.  I think they look cute, but for all practical purposes, I find them a pain in the butt.

Jeffrey likes these.

He says its okay if you think they are jammies.

It doesn't matter to him.  He would rather explore the grass.

Or eat some leaves by the lake and beach.  -- it was so warm in September, the kids still are playing in the water!


Here are Nathan and Evan wading in below...did Mommy say they could?  No.

Boys will be boys....I let it go, and they smiled and played and got soaked---and for a moment, all was right in this crazy world....




This picture made the Christmas Card...Jeffrey laughs hard like his Grandpa -- scrunches up his nose and giggles for no reason at all (also like Grandpa)

Babies seem to understand more than adults do about life.  The trust themselves completely to another, laugh when happy, cry when sad or needing something, and find everything and everyone interesting and unique.  They don't judge or hurt others, but just crave being loved.  Somewhere along the way, we lose this...

somedays when I am sad, Jeffrey crawls on me and laughs and looks at me like I am the most wonderful, amazing person in the world!  It's hard for me to believe, but when I think about it, I know that's how Jesus looks at each one of us, all the time...


Sorry, but I just don't get tired of these pictures....look how beautiful this oak tree was in the background and that smile on Evan's face!

I will blog when I feel like it.

The blog has slowly gotten away from me...which is good.  WHICH FEELS WONDERFUL.

I am spending time playing with my boys outside.

Snuggling with my last baby.

Pulling Jeffrey away from my computer.  And everything else.

Napping with Mystro on my lap.

I am learning to let go of years of "have to's" in my head for other things.  "want to's".

I am making changes.  slowly, but surely.  it's about love, forgiveness, family.  not obligations or appearances of a perfect life, a perfect family, a perfect anything that doesn't exist.

God is the only perfection in this world.  people, all people, should stop trying to pretend something like that is attainable.  the perfectionist in me is strong.  I have been feeding it for years...as long as I can remember.  but I am starting to let it go.  It fights me.  That's okay though, this is something worth fighting for....

#Braverliving.

Let's go.  One day at a time.

Don't get me wrong, in between all these "fun" blog posts, and its the same for everyone, there are lots and lots of  BAD days.  Crummy days at work, sick days, headaches, disappointments, deaths, failures, let downs...but sprinkled in between these days are glimpses of better things.

Somedays I get very angry we are sitting down here in this crap-hole.

Somedays I get overjoyed with all the blessings and wonderful things of life.

So if you are wondering where I have been, the answer is:  here.  HERE.  In the present.  It's hard to be in the present when you are a perfectionist, struggling with fears, anxiety, and illness.  But life is hard in general.  Nobody has it easy, no matter how pretty their blog looks or how sparkly their facebook posts are....

So, where did I leave off?  Looks like September....I will do a few posts about that this coming week...

I think.

If I don't post though, and you are a friend, you know how to find me anyways....  :)


Tuesday, November 4, 2014

Lego choo choos....

In early September we took the kids to this great lego display....









They were pretty into it...it is fun to see them get so excited...

There were legos out you could touch and play with, and a ramp, so they built things and crashed them down the ramp for some time....


Monday, November 3, 2014

Snakes and sales....

These are the paper snakes Nathan made for his school end-of-year sale:  

We spent a lot of time painting toilet paper rolls, and folding those dang things!  Evan loved helping to paint...

Here are his teachers....

The kids sang songs, but I didn't take any pictures of that, just video....

This is Nathan's "house" with his friends.  He worked hard on it all summer.  Quite frequently, the people living in this house changed...if there was a fight, or if there was a better  house, people moved on....it is very  interesting to listen to all of this from Nathan, and believe me, I cannot keep up.



Yes, this was a REALLY HOT day in August...



Nathan had one of the busiest stands, so I think he was a little disappointed when he sold out and realized that everyone else had sold out of their stuff too!  he never even had time to go and buy anything...

Overall, it was a very fun night, and not one that I ever want to miss...the kids have the BEST summer...not many summer programs let you run in the woods with your imaginations and friends...

Wednesday, October 29, 2014

Time to catch up....yet again....

The days just fly by...September 15 and October 15 are very busy deadlines for me at work, and on top of that, there is hunting in September and October, school starting and new routines, religion classes on Monday nights (I am now assisting with a class), indoor gym sports for the boys on Tuesday nights...and Nathan's birthday was last Saturday.  The free time I have had I was trying to catch up on Nathan's scrapbook, which, I have still not finished as much as I would have liked to...dang...this whole work and taking care of life thing keeps getting in my way.... :-)

Oh well, if it wasn't for all this, there would not be much to blog about!  Speaking of blogs, I read a blog post which many parents thought was really good:

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/m-blazoned/the-default-parent_b_6031128.html?utm_hp_ref=parents&ir=Parents

I thought I would like it, but the more I read it, the more this woman's thoughts she shared with us bothered me.  Take a read (if you read this tiny blog) and see what you think...if there is such a thing as a "default parent", I would weigh the good from that far outweighs the bad, if you can even call it "bad"....

So, to recap some things via picture:

Helped (term used loosely) bale hay at Grandma's...

New wagon and baler this year, a throw, and the rake is in the background...

Brothers helping brothers....

Onion harvest 2014!


Many many onions....


Hanging out with the other grandparents for dinner...

Classic foot photo: (right after this Auntie left Jeffrey sit on the ground and then he fell over...poor Jeffrey!  Poor Auntie!)


Relaxing....

Kids getting wet...last time of the year almost...

Last time at the beach...


A friend's wedding....

A tired Mommy...

A sign of God's love...

Karen and Mom --  matching!

Licking the spoon....

Hanging with friends - labor day!

Bouncing with friends!

Moving all around....

Mom's helper....

Being silly with old friends...

Mr. Mystro....

More bonfires, more relaxing....


Home Depot First Time!

Fixing pillows for a friend...or rather, making them....

Finishing a prayer shawl...

Eating beans from Grandma's garden....

Going to church...

Last of the patio tomatoes....


Hunting...

How pretty is this???